Friday, December 17, 2010
Sup guys, I'm still in a bad mood. Haha, great. Di's making his minecraft server after I helped him in a bit. I just played minecraft, and yeah, 6 of my diamond was stolen. I'm on skype with Barry and the entire AzuRe gang. And here I thought I could get a good mood if I played something else. I guess trying to hide it is a freaking hard thing especially if you despise yourself. Damn, I seriously becoming emo about this shit. I kinda know more about her know, I'm not going to say what. It's going to seriously blow my cover to a friend. I kinda changed my mind on attention. I used to constantly want and need attention. Now, I just wanna be alone without anybody. Still, I kinda am slowly not understanding myself these day. Man yesterday's training left my body in aches all over.
I visited her facebook trying to maybe know her better. Man I seriously need to start asking about more advice man. I think I can definetely count her as a crush. A big one, I never felt this way unlike my previous crushes. I kinda feel better when I blog, okay, time for music.
--Ezekiel at 3:25 PM
Thursday, December 16, 2010
Back here to update this dead blog. Hell, NCC was tiring today. Like always, the gang slacked together. A lot of people never come for training like on Tuesday. The unit strength like Tuesday, 9 people come only. Apparently I'm in a kinda bad mood. ._. I have no idea why, just got that feeling of just getting a girlfriend, and it must be that girl. Damn. Today in NCC we did PT 1st. Just run 2 rounds and I got breathless, man I seriously need to stop slacking infront of the monitor just listening to music and thinking about the past or skyping and lagging the crap out of my sexy failing, computer. I think my computer is even worse than Samuel's "wooden or paper computer"
Listening to my Green day trying to cheer myself up. I kinda despise myself for not stepping out and expressing my feelings. Hell, I don't even know her that well. I just have that feeling she's a seriously awesome girl. Plus, she's hot and cute. I don't even know if she's single. Wow, I suck bad. After training, the gang bought went to the bubble tea shop. Suddenly see Natasha come out of school. She went over to greet us. Then pass Shafiq her stuff. Then we went to slack at the "Big" playground. Over there got bangalah dismantling the playground where we always slack after NCC. Maybe not always. But still that place is awesome. Then we just sit there watch then cut Mr. Lion open. Ouch. Later we got bored and went to practice drill under the HDB, beside the playground. Damn epic :D. Everybody looking at us. Later Natasha come, pickup her stuff. Then we slacked for a bit then Hazzif wanted to leave. Whole gang follow him lo. Before reaching the bus, the 2 lovebirds giggle like mad like that sia, scary sia. I then wanted to like ask a question regarding the how the hell do I get that girl, but I didn't have the balls to do it. I'm just a little dog I guess. Later reach the bus stop I gathered my courage and explain to them and ask for advice. Seriously embarassing, I have seriously never asked a question regarding relationships in my freaking life. Not much good advice rather more like joking. Thats a plus to Shafiq. Natasha? She awesome, best advice ever, Props to Natasha.
Okay time to go, wait one last thing,

"If you ever feel like giving up, remember why you even held on for so long"
- USM Hafiz
--Ezekiel at 9:23 PM